I want to start out by saying that I feel really, really good this week.
Maybe it’s because my cancer is slowly withering away, maybe it’s because I know for a fact that my treatment is working, maybe it’s from my time away with family, or maybe it’s because I had a few extra days to enjoy before I go back into my normal chemo cycle. No matter what the reason, I feel great.
In fact, I’ve felt so great that I actually feel guilty about not being at work! More on that in a bit… 🙂
About a week or two before my last day on air, I remember having a mini meltdown to some of my bosses about leaving. I really didn’t want to take a break from work. I remember talking to our assistant news director and explaining that I have no idea how chemo will affect me. Maybe I’ll be really sick and not be able to work at all, but maybe I’ll be ok and then what? I’ll have taken so much time off from work for nothing. He told me I needed to go and take care of my health and in these exact words he said, “just think of it as a really long vacation!” I replied jokingly, “Yeah, worst vacation ever.”
I didn’t realize at the time that my whole perception of life would change in the matter of months. Now that my good days don’t come around as often, I take full advantage of the days I feel better and try not to ever let a single day go to waste. I really am trying to look at this break from work as an unusual vacation. I guess my boss really was onto something!
I’ve been posting a lot about my good days on Instagram and honestly, I probably put out a false image of what having cancer is really like, which is why I write these blogs. It takes a lot out of me to write such honest posts describing how I’m really feeling and it’s especially hard to write the really negative ones, but they’re real and that’s what I promised. I bring up Instagram because that’s where I post about all of my good days. I have recent pictures of my sister and I kayaking, biking, hiking, hanging out on the beach, etc. I may not be able to bike as long as I used to, I have to take breaks during my hikes, and I’m not even allowed to be in the sun without being covered from head to toe in sunscreen, but I’m enjoying every single minute that I can. This past week was so great that I actually forgot I had cancer. It only just hit me this morning when I realized I have another treatment coming up in just a couple days, but I’m trying really hard to shut my mind off and not think about that until I have to. Enough about that, this is supposed to be a happy post 🙂
My trip with my family was perfect and just what I needed. I feel refreshed and ready to tackle these next 8 treatments. I still can’t wait to get back to work. I’ve missed it so much that…
I’LL BE BACK IN A COUPLE WEEKS!
I cannot wait! It’ll just be a short visit for now, but I can’t wait to see my coworkers and be back on air for a day or two. I even have a story that I’ll be working on while I’m in town. It’s going to be the best story I’ve ever been involved in telling. I don’t want to give it all away just yet, but trust me when I say you won’t want to miss it.
With that said, I hope you’ve all had just as great of a week as I’ve had. I’ll be spending some time with my older sister before my next treatment on Monday. My younger sister, Melyssa (in the picture below), is making my new countdown sign which I will show off once my 5th treatment is in the books! Have a great weekend everyone!